Hello my lovelies. I am sorry that it has been so long since I have written anything here. I have been going through a lot of emotional turmoil lately. I and my boyfriend of almost 12 years broke up back in January, and I have honestly been struggling significantly with my mental health. I am bi-polar, and I have depression, and have been that way for most of my life. Some days are better than others, but as you might imagine, certain life-changing events can easily set me into a downward spiral that is so difficult to crawl back up out of. The photo below was taken on a good day when I felt fierce and strong. The video was on a not-so-good day when I had zero hope. Sometimes those moments can be hours or even minutes apart.
One of my resolutions this year was to write more. I had intended to write here much more often, but then everything seems to have been put on hold while I dealt with these major changes in my life. I wanted to share my thoughts, my feelings, including about my depression, but then I wasn't sure if I should. I filmed the video here over a month ago, intending on sharing it then, but it was just too painful at the time. However, now I am feeling a little stronger and think that it does serve to get my point across. I think it is important to talk about mental health. There is still such a stigma surrounding that topic, and I personally, have dealt with decades of misunderstanding, fear and even loathing when people see those sides of me. Everyone is dealing with struggles and challenges we know nothing about. We know this. But it's easy to forget as we deal with our own issues. My point is, be kind. Check on everyone, including your strong friends.